Nothing like a Morning

Getting up at 6 in the morning is absolutely amazing! I've been up for 3 hours now and I have done the following: ran, had a quiet time, listened to music, showered, ate breakfast, and have just been able to think.

I am still in awe of God and I pray that it never ceases.

So with this thinking, what's important to me now? Well, I love the Bible study boys and I want to teach them all that I've learned. They are absolutely amazing and I hope they make the best of their time here at Clemson and in life! Also, trying to become a complete man. I am not ready to settle down. I still have some exploring to do and some exploring with myself inside. Exactly what do I have inside of me? Do I have what it takes? Some more adventures are on the way. Some more fights have to be made. Exploring and fighting are on my mind now, but the thought of being a lover has crossed my mind. I long for my wife, but I got to finish finding out about me first. My family has become more important to me and the roles they play and have played and will play. I long for Clemson and that God would rain upon her. It's important to me now that I discipline myself. That I train for what's to come in my life both physically, emotionally, and spiritually. This is what is important to me. I want to learn, I want to grow, I want to fight, I want to be able to have peace, I want to teach others, I want to love, I want to live!

What's your life all about? Is it not worth living? Why?

I might go to Boston this weekend. I might dance this weekend. I will study this weekend. I need to get away. I need to see the world and to experience parts of it.

Last night I went to a little park with a shelter and baseball field. I had a little study time there and 2 sets of fathers and sons play baseball. It brought back memories and I had to call my dad and thank him. There is something about baseball and it warmed me to help them shag balls. There are so many joys in life that our Father provides. The simple sound of a ball hitting a bat. The sound of a ball hitting a glove. The smell of the glove. The feel of the ball. The smell of the grass. The texture of the sand. Bright chalk on the baselines (you can't step on it before a game). The lights shining down. Life is beautiful.