Overload

"Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who says differently is trying to sell something." I don't want to harp on this quote other than the truth found in it. Life is tough and painful. It sucks. There's nothing you can do about it. As much as I want to discuss all the pain going on now, I think it's not even worth writing about. Why? Cause there's nothing I can do about it. What can be done is to perservere--to take the pain on in full stride and not let it bring you down. It's interesting to see how God works and His efforts to help me that I may perservere. In one single day, I found enough on my mind and wounds within my heart to pain me to the point of giving up in a mix of frustration, confusion, anxiety, fear, distress. I did not come close to the point of giving up, but am admitting only the potential it had as satan does his best to get in a foothold to build within. When all of these worries began to fill my mind, I talk to a friend whom communication was not made for almost a year. Not only that, that we should keep updates on each other every so often. This person didn't talk to me for almost a year! and then a comment like that? It's exciting, but confusing. Then, that night I found out I had been accepted to go to Alaska on summer project. As I read the introduction to what the project was about, my heart ached and longed for the trip and tears filled my eyes. This is something I have desired and truly need. I will discuss this more later, but after Alaska I promise that if you didn't take the time to find out what makes me tick, you won't be able to recognize me. God is awesome. When troubles of life come in, God is right there beside you. The race can be finished and won; keep up he fight.

This is only a taste of what has happened and pretty vague. Yet even for it's vagueness, God's influence is evident and this is all that matters; God is with us.

Someone said I should write a book about my life. I find this interesting because people listen to me talk about my life. I don't know why. Perhaps it's the way I tell about my life? This baffles me, but I sure do love talking about what all is tickin in the brain.