Long time no say, but has much changed?

I first admit that I write this at the convenience of my laptop--that I am in need to just get something out of me.

Perhaps you have gone through a period of time when you had no wants. You have the basic wants, but you have no real wants. You have a hard time figuring out what your true desires are. What were your desires become nothing more than whispers. So if your desires are whispers, what speaks louder? Nothing...

Nothing...

How does this happen? I have no idea.

Well it's not nothing anymore, but the affects have been damaging. Not the nothing, but the lack of discipline within the nothing. Satan ain't no dummy.

So what's up now?

I don't know. I hear something now, though there is consistency in my desires, it is slightly different. I don't understand it yet.

In the mean time, I feel lost, insecure, a desire to be away from people.

There are lots of feelings. Much of which I have little understanding, let alone be able to share them.

So truth...God loves me.

And because of this, all is well. For I love Him because He first loved me.

So it goes