Catching up on Random Thoughts

So yesterday, Ben, Ray and I were able to get over 30 people to participate in an activity 2 hrs before it happened. Hey-oh....I miss doing that kind of stuff...everything is hard now with people trying to make it in the world. There's so much pressure with school and getting a job and supporting yourself, that so many people miss out on some simple joys of life. This is a struggle I have had. I'm here at Clemson...ergo I'm here to get a degree...but first and foremost I am here to serve my Lord. It is the Lord that brought me to Clemson, not my hardwork or desire to get a degree. So you have to be a good steward, which would include trying hard in class, and you have to remember first and foremost why you are here. It's tough.

I've learned a lot about this past semester as it's winding down. For instance, just how selfish I am and how dependent upon the Lord I am and how much more I should be. I've also learned that...when in the leadership role, it's a whole lot harder than anticipated when learning about being a leader. This semester has been overwhelming with so many decisions and responsibilities, but God has proven His faithfulness and everything is working out fine. There are still some situations I just don't know how to handle now, but all will be fine as it always is.

I do not know where the feeling comes from or why, but I have had a strong desire to just love. I'm so thankful for all the brothers I have. I wish I could develop deep friendships with all of them. I am so blessed. I don't know why...what have I ever done? I long to go home with my Father. The feeling is so strong to be home. There is stuff left to do here and I'll gladly do it for it is what is asked of me by the One that loves me and I Him.

For anyone and if anyone reads this. Take courage. Keep pressing. For some of us this is not our home. I encourage you to continue to pursue righteousness as it pleases our Lord. Ask for more than you can handle so the Lord may show His work. Ask for wisdom that you may understand and handle situations. Take actions. Take risks. Stand up against the world if it is right even if the world stands against you--for you will never stand alone as long as God is with you. Seek God's will daily. Dive into His word daily for it is the truth spoken to us today. One day He will come for you and you will have such peace and joy you have never felt. Until then, pray.